FINALLY!! ok she threw me out.. but then again it was GREAT!! first i was like SHIT! where do i go.. within an hr i was composed and found a solution! thanks to sym.. its only a mnth i know but im praying my uncle will shift out of my grands place then amit and i can live there.. haiz.. i cant wait t get out of this flithy place.. at first i thought shit then i realize what the fuck.. i have nothing to lose! i pay a fucking high rent and i live in flith! gtg!
Well i just got asked for rental.. damn.. i feel like shit.. i feel guilty as well.. seriously.. amit has been working so hard as a waiter trying for us to survive and ive been doing nothing.. really ive lied to him abt gg for viewing! BADDDDD!!! urgh.. time to wake up! SEROUSLLYY! once upon a time.. money was no issue for us. ok it was just abt mnths ago.. not too long.. then we fell big time.. amit has woken up but i havent! WHY? SONIA TIME TO DO SOMETHING IN LIFE! ok seriously dude.. no more lazying ard.. i feel extremely guilty and he is working so long hrs to earn fucking $70 bucks only.. and our 1 deal can make us a minimum $1000.. and im not working.. ok NO MORE! .. tday is a new day. im awake at fucking 3am in the morning.. have to be a grands place by 930am tml morning.. i dunno what the hell am i working at.. i have nothing at the moment.. URGH! this is not gg to happen.. when i started real estate i worked literally 14 hrs.. got nothing but still got gg.. where the fuck has my motivation gone? in the BIN! why? i dunno..
pinky is right .. motivation has to be money.. i need money i want money.. and seriously i need money! my goal is by december to get out of this flithy place! ... not that its too bad! its just irritating.. seriously!
SONIA GET UP AND GET RUNNING.. IF SUNJIT AND PINKY CAN CLOSE FUCKING 10 000 A MNTH SO CAN U! AND THE MONEY WILL DO YOU GOOD!
im dam pissed off! sharin's stupid machine tore my expensive
extremely nice t-shirt! stupid bitch when i told her abt it she was like
so? next time i buy a machine i shld test drive washing ure t-shirt!
fucking scarastic! seriously.. my t-shirt's arent like ure fucking $5
t-shirt that u wear for fucking 10 years! they last me a long long time
and they are fucking branded! shhheesssh! seriously ure hse is flithy
dirty.. ure dog smells like shit.. ure kitchen stinks.. no hygien!
seriouslyyy..even my rm is much cleaner than ure bed! and ure dad
is forever afriad of bed bugs! if anyday there are bed bug's it'll be
cause of you! and ure flithy rm and surrondings!!
im so irritated that u can answer me like that.. seriously gd luck to fairuz! no wait as per my reads .. i know u both arent meant to b together.. cause the other day i didnt tell u.. U HAVE NO MARRIAGE LINE! urgh i dunno y the fuck am i so accomdating to you! u think ure fucking great when seriously u have nothing!apart frm ure big fat ass and fucked up mouth! irritating swine!
Goals to achieve before the year end! seriously for real...
starting tml 20th October 2010!
- Wake up at 10 am everyday
- do listings for the day
- call client and serve minimum 5 clients a week = 1 closing a wk!
- sleep by 1am everynight!
- save 20 bucks aday! = $1430 by that
- save 10% of every comm earned!
- have $5000 in saving by DEC 2010! $3570!
- shift out by dec out of sharin's place get a master in SERANGOON! AIM!
Seriously, im done.. im lazy i have extremely no motivation i do not know why am i living.. day to day im just a normal kid who have a job that she doesnt go to. y am i always like that? ppl say its chosen.. but i wake up everyday feeling not to do anything with my life. im stuck. ive earn alot of money and now im back with 10C in my wallet and nothing. i have tuiton which i dun go to .. and seriously no money coming in.. everyone says its a phrase.. its a phrase too long.. i have goals i have wishes.. but nothing.. i have dreams but i aint working towards it.. seriously something is wrong with me.. i cant sleep at night i cant work either.. i have a bf whose ever supporting and doing things to make me happy but serious i give him nothing. 
